I knew making the commitment to my husband meant committing to his daughter as well.
I think in the beginning I underestimated the power, relevance, and necessity of an active mother in the home. I don’t say this lightly either. I have an amazing mom who has always showered me with love, attention, support, encouragement, motivation, advice, and protection. I hate to say that she made it look easy! And truthfully, all of the mothers who have made an impact in my life made it look easy.
Now that I’ve begun my own journey of motherhood it’s forced me to grow in ways I didn’t even know possible.
I am an only child, so I’ve always been taken care of. Once I became older, it allowed me to become very independent as well. I never had to worry about anyone else outside of myself. You could even say that I had a level of selfishness. I didn’t truly know what it took to be responsible for other people.
But now that I have a husband and a daughter, I’ve had to learn how to truly put others’ needs before my own. I have to be selfless in every sense of the word, meaning I’m always thinking of ways to make their days easier. I’m constantly planning for the future, even if the future is just a few hours from now, to ensure that they’re taken care of.
When I tell you, I had to really tap into my Proverbs 31! And I’ve been loving the journey.
I’m also being refined in more ways than I can imagine. I have seen my own habits and tendencies rub off on Kaye, which can be a good or bad thing (LOL). I’m able to see myself reflected in her and find more ways to improve myself. I’m always reminding myself that being a righteous example of a YAH-fearing woman never ends. I’m always been watched, observed, and maybe even judged by my actions. That has caused me to be more thoughtful about the things I say and do.
It wasn’t until I had my own family that I was able to truly see the totality of the beauty of YAH’s creation, which is a family. I understand now why the world tries so hard to dismantle it - it really is the most powerful thing, especially when everyone is aligned to the same mission.
And as for me and my house, we will serve The Most High.
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